Because of you...

Because of you...

I have always been a little sister.

I have had a role model to base all my decisions.

I have never been alone.

I have always had some one to push me harder.

I have always had someone to talk to.

I never had to do things by myself.

I have always had someone to be jealous of.

I have had a best friend I couldn't get rid of.

Because of what happened...

My world turned upside down.

My life was forever changed.

My cellphone stores the mausoleum code where your phone number used to be.

I spent years losing sleep trying to protect what is left of you here on earth. (Your girls)

I question What would Christy want? because when it comes to your girls you are all that matters. 

I lost myself and what is left is your advocate because you had more to live for.

I feel guilt that I am here and not you every day. 

My heart is shattered and there is no way to repair it.

I worry and feel fear because you can never really know what a person is capable of. 

8 years is not ok... I am not ok.  I won't be ok... ever.

I miss you everyday.

Forever and Always.

Amaysing Thoughts.